Sometimes I get in moods that I can't describe. I don't know why I am in them but I just am. I'm snappy, I'm short, and I just want to sleep all day. There is no cure, there is nothing that can be said or done to make me feel better. I don't know what causes them, but they suck. Today was one of those days. I woke up just not in a good mood and it ruined my entire day. I had a breakdown about what I was going to do for the rest of my life, for no reason at all. I have no idea where it came from. The issue of what I am going to do with my life is still there but for some reason, today, I made a huge deal about it. I sabotaged time with Khris because I was in this mood and I HATE that. Like I said, I can't control these moods and I don't know how to get out of them. But today, in the midst of all of that, when I finally got home and I laid my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me, I took one look up at his face and he looked back down at mine and I knew that at that moment that I was so crazy for not knowing anything about my future. I know that no matter what happens in my life, I know one thing is for certain...that one day I'll be able to write his last name after my first...and if that's all my future holds then I'm okay with that.
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