Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I feel as though I no longer need to blog. I feel like I don't need an outlet to express the things I can not say out loud because there is nothing for me to hide or to get off my chest. I am so happy and content with where my life is right now and I wouldn't change any of it for a second. I blogged a lot when I was at Longwood and I missed Khris so much, but now that I see him almost everyday I no longer feel the need to tell my computer feelings that I feel when I can just tell him. He understands what I am going through and what's important to me and he respects that fact that sometimes I just have bad days for no specific reason. I used to vent on my blog about things that bother me, but I vent to Khris now about everything. I love that he listens and is willing to help me solve my problems. I no longer need to keep a diary of my life or document things that happen. Another reason why I never blog anymore is because I simply don't have the time with going to school full time and working just about full time. I don't have time to take 45 mins out of my day to sit and express my feelings in words. I am sitting in my history class with a professor that makes no sense so I have to find something that keeps me awake. So that is the only reason why I am typing this right now. I don't want to rub my happiness in anyone's face, that's not my intention at all...but when I'm are filled with happiness and joy I can't help but to just let it out. I know that no one hardly reads this thing anymore anyway and I'm fine with that. Maybe come summer I'll pick it back up because I'll have more time on my hands, but I say that knowing that it'll never happen. So this is a post to say that I probably won't be posting on this anymore unless I feel that I absolutely need to...and at this point I'll just blog to Khris...because at this point if I ever lose my memory or forget where I came from I know he'll be there to remind me of who I am, who loves me, and who I am supposed to be.