Random Thought for the Day!

I'm sitting here in Shafer waiting for Khris to get out of class simply just because he's always warm and its freakin' freezing outside.  There is old school Justin Timberlake playing in the background and I'm munching on an everything bagel with cream cheese and drinking an apple juice.  Ever since I've moved to RVA I've realized its all about the little things.  You can't live an extravagant life in RVA but that's how its supposed to be.  We're supposed to have empty gas tanks and live off of ramen (I actually am living off of ramen bc Lisa and I have yet to go to the grocery store) and we're supposed to eat junk food ALL THE TIME.  I don't really know where I'm going with this post but I feel the need to blog.  You know sometimes you just have to rant about the most random things just to get them off your mind?  Well that's what I'm doing.  I've had to be there for a lot of people here lately and I absolutely love it.  I had to be there for my sister when she was going through a tough time (and still is) and right now I'm being strong for my best friend Heather.  Lord knows that if I EVER get my hands on that guy....oh it would bad.  I can't explain how painful it is for me to see someone be scared of place they've loved all their life and because of stupid ass guy she's got hurt really bad.  But I know she'll grow from and that something positive will come out of it.

I recently signed up for classes and I'm taking 16 credits all on MWF...I'm happy about his decision but I hope I don't regret putting all my classes on the same days and that I don't get burned out.  Exams are coming up so I probably won't post for awhile.

I find myself not posting as often as I have in the past.  Usually when I would post it would be when I had something negative to get off my mind or to complain about how unhappy I was.  The other day Khris mentioned to me that I don't blog that much anymore and he asked me why I didn't.  I simply said that because when I was without him at Longwood, my blog was my way of getting the frustration of not seeing him out of me because if it dwelt inside me it would have tore me apart.  Well I guess the reason why I don't blog that much is because I'm happy with my life.  I'm satisfied with where I am.  I guess that's no reason to not blog and maybe I should blog about the happy parts...maybe that'll be my New Years' Resolution...blog about the happy stuff, not the sad stuff... this'll probably be the first resolution I actually stick too...because Lord knows going to the gym 3 days a week isn't actually going to happen... :P

So I've ranted long enough and Khris is now out of class and is walking towards me at this very moment :)

R.I.P. Papa

Today my Papa passed away...he was sitting in his chair in the living room reading the newspaper when the Lord called him home.  He loved to read...he loved that chair.  Its perfect that he passed away there...it was his place to get away from the world, getting lost in whatever book he was reading that day.  He had a glass of 7up sitting on the table near him and he was at peace.  Thinking about all this makes me sad, but it makes me feel at peace to know that he left this world doing what he loved most.

I will never forget the tractor rides where we would sit in the scoop part of the tractor and he would raise me and my siblings and cousins up and down for hours on end.  I will never forget the summers they came camping with us and we took turns driving his pontoon boat.  I will never forget the numerous thanksgivings and christmases celebrated at his house.  I will never forget the inner tube that he bought us that one summer and it caused more injuries than it did fun just because my cousins and I were so silly.

My Papa's birthday is on Christmas Eve and we always go to his house for Christmas Eve to celebrate so changes will be made in our traditions but the traditions we used to have will never be forgotten.  He would've been 75 this year.

R.I.P. Papa....I love you so much. <3

Sisters.

The bond of a sisters can not be broken.  No matter what they will always be sisters.  We will always be there for each other in the good times and the bad.  No matter how many fights we had a kids, we still love each other more than anything.  My sister is so strong and has been my entire life and now is the time where I have to be strong for her...and it has put my life in a new perspective.  What she's going through has made me think a lot and has made me wish I could just take it back like it never happened.  But I can't no matter how bad I want to.  He isn't worth it and he never was, so I'm gonna be the person my sister needs because right now a hug and a phone call means the world to her.  She doesn't deserve what has happened but you know what? He doesn't deserve her.

My sister will probably never read this, but I'm okay with that...she knows that I love her so much.

Oh How I Hate Traffic.

May I just rant about traffic for 10 minutes?? okay. thanks. 

So I'm driving from Khris' house this morning to get to class at 9am...I left his house at 7:50am taking 288N to 64E to 95S.  So I'm getting ready to merge onto 288 and traffic is backed up...so i'm like GREAT. Well 288 managed to pick up and I was running at about 65mph yayy well then I get to 64E and the merge is fine...no traffic backup...nothing.  Until about 10 minutes away from the 95S exit ramp and DEAD STOP. ugh. So we're inching a long and suddenly 10 minutes turns into 25 minutes.  AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE?!?!?!?! All the cars that zoom up ahead KNOWING that they have to get over and then they wait until the last minute possible and then they decide to merge over OH NUH UH MISTER YOU ARE NOT GETTING IN FRONT OF ME. I mean like how rude is that...this guy seriously like cuts me off and I lay on my horn and he flicks me off...HE DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A SIGNAL ON. ughh some people I swear.  So anyway in the end I ended up getting to my apt around 9:20 which is takes me 20 mins to walk to class putting me there 10 minutes before the class would be over so I skipped because that would've been a waste of my time.  but good heavens people LEARN TO DRIVE. 

okay i'm done now. :) 

Finding Peace Today.

Psalm 46

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah. There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.  God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.  The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.  The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah. Come behold the works of the Lord, what desolations he hath made in the earth.  He maketh wars to cease unto the ends of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spread in sunder; he burneth the chariot in fire.  Be still and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.  The Lord of hosts is with us: The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

Jeremiah 29:11-14

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.  Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.  And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.  And I will be found of you, saith the Lord: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places wither I have driven you, saith the Lord; and I will bring you again into the place when whence I caused you to be carried away captive.

Hebrews 13:5 -

...for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

That Which Doesn't Break You, Only Makes You Stronger.

Sometimes in life you have to step up and be the strong one.  You have to catch them when they fall when usually it's the other way around.  I'm not used to being the stronger person but things happen in life when you don't have a choice. You have to be there to be the shoulder to cry on and the open arms to give a loving hug. The road ahead will be long and hard but we'll get through it together, as a family.

To The Unexpected.

Sometimes life will throw you a curve ball and you won't know how to deal with.  It'll throw you so far off your course that you won't know how to get back.  You won't know how to handle it. You won't know what to do and you'll sit there and wonder how in the world this could happen....but you don't know the answer.  These are the moments in life where you need to reach out to those that love you, support you, and can comfort you because nothing else in this world will solve a broken heart like family or a best friend.