Words Mean More Than You Think.

Anytime:

1. Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World

2. Beautiful Things - Gungor

3. Say Anything - Cartel 

4. Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin 

5. Samson - Regina Spektor 

6. Raise Your Glass - P!nk

7. Song In My Head - Sherwood 

8. 321 - Hedley 

When I Miss Him: 

1. The Moon - The Swell Season 

2. Only You Can Love Me This Way - Keith Urban 

3. Smash Into You - Beyoncé

4. Paperweight - Joshua Radin & Schulyer Fisk 

5. Everything - Tyler Ward 

6. Until You - Dave Barnes

7. Set the Fire to the Third Bar - Snow Patrol & Martha Wainwright  

Love: 

1. All Those Nights - Chase Coy

2. Sort Of - Ingrid Michaelson

3. Wedding Dress - Matt Nathanson

4. 1,2,3,4 - Plain White T's

5. Mine - Taylor Swift

6. Collide - Howie Day 

7. If the Moon Fell Down - Chase Coy & Colbie Caillat 

 

Touches the Heart: 

1.  We All Need Saving - Jon McLaughlin 

2. A Drop In the Ocean - Ron Pope 

3. Jar of Hearts - Cristina Perri 

4. I'd Rather Be With You - Joshua Radin

5. Marry Me - Train 

6. Smile - Uncle Kracker 

7. Temporary Home - Carrie Underwood 

8. Gravity - Sara Bareilles  

Set it on shuffle and let everything go. <3 

Why Bother?

This morning I woke up late for my 11am class. I rushed out of bed threw on jeans and t-shirt, put on a hoodie and was out the door. Whatever makeup I had on was leftover from yesterday and I had extreme bed head hair. I managed to brush my teeth and grab a granola on the way out of my dorm but other than that I didn't do anything.  I decided to hop in the shower when I got back from class so that I wouldn't look like death on a stick but then I got to thinking, why bother?  I don't have anyone to impress here. The only person that ever compliments me on my makeup or clothes is over an hour away from me.  Sure I can send him pictures of my outfit and such, but nothing beats hearing in person.  I bought new clothes this past weekend and I love them, but the only person I want to show them off to is him.  I don't have anyone here who cares what I look like so I feel like all the makeup, the hair products, and the nice smelling perfumes are a waste.  Even if I was to see him in the state of attractiveness that I was in this morning he would still call me beautiful...so while I put on this makeup, make my hair look nice, and pick out a cute outfit I can't help but think why bother? Because the one person that does matter won't be in my arms until Friday.

A Love That Makes Your Heart Beat Faster.

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. <3

Arabesques, Fouettes & Pirouettes.

I dance to feel, to relieve, to connect, to love, to live, to embrace, to reflect, to let go, to remember.  I dance because its the only thing I can control.  I can't control stress, tests, quizzes, papers, or drama.  I can't control feelings, thoughts, emotions, or tears.  Sometimes being manipulative is a good thing; not of people but of your body with each pointed toe, straight leg, and arm movement.  Sometimes its the only thing that makes sense to me.  I wish I could go somewhere secluded and just dance...it would make things so much easier.

A True Blessing.

Today was my 19th birthday. My day was filled with LOTS of facebook posts, streamers, decorations, flowers, dinner, and love.  In years past, I never really had a "Valentine"...I was always so happy to have a birthday on the one holiday that made me the saddest because I didn't have a Valentine. This year, not only did I have one amazing birthday but I also had one amazing Valentine.  He got me flowers, a card, goldfish, a teddy bear, and a love letter. He was so afraid that I wasn't going to like his gifts...but I LOVED them.  Its everything I could've ever wanted.

We have these little things between us where he will give me a challenge that I have to complete in order to get to one of my presents...this time it was a note stuff inside a teddy bear. I had to find the seam that he had torn and pull it apart to find the love letter.  I successfully completed the challenge and was able to read the sweetest letter I've ever read.  Word can't even begin to explain how happy the letter made me...so happy that I shed a few tears in the process of reading it.

This day was everything I could've wished for and more. Thanks to all my friends and family who helped me become the person I am today...you all are my rock and without yall I wouldn't be here.  Most importantly I want to thank God for bringing Khris into my life as well as all my other friends and family...yall all are a true blessing. <3

Defining Love.

In a relationship, your main focus should always be to make the other person happy.  If he focuses on making you happy, and you focus on making him happy, then how could it not be perfect? <3

Happy Music.

Music has always been my escape. I dance to music to feel. I sing to music to express. I listen to music to relate. Music is the one thing that can aid to any emotion whether sad, happy, angry, or excited.  Music is the one thing that can make me move like nothing else can; with each beat I hear my body interprets in a different way. With each note, melody, harmony my mind goes off into this land where problems don't exist, stress is gone and sorrows are uplifted.  With each word, phrase, and lyric my heart relates and applies it to my own personal life.  Every song I have on my Ipod, has a meaning to me specifically whether its emotionally, mentally, or physically.

Before I met Khris I always listened to music that was depressing and sad.  That was my life before I met him.  I was so lost in the dark that I couldn't find my way out. I didn't know which way was up until that one spring night on April 3rd when I laid eyes on you.  From that day forward my days were turned upside down. I felt like I had a meaning. I started smiling again. The one thing that I notice a change in the most was the type of music I listened to.  I stopped listening to the depressing songs and bought a new Itunes card to buy happy music. Music that was uplifting and happy.  Music that made me smile.  I soon realized that the type of music that I listen to portrayed the personalities of the people in my life. And I soon realized that I wanted to listen to happy music for the rest of my life...and that's exactly what I'm going to do. <3